Blue

I am feeling decidedly like a bitch....most of the time.
I'm not feeling like I'm being a good mummy or even a half-way decent one.
I am definitely NOT over DC.
I feel anxious every time we get homework from Dragon Lady.
Not being a particularly good friend to dear friend who has lovely new man.
Negative, low self-esteem, not very confident and tearful.
I want to shake this murky quagmire that I'm in.
But not sure how?

Mean mummy

Child likes her hot waterbottles.
But tonight it was like pulling teeth to get her to do anything!
Dawdler, procrastinator, both good names for her.
There always seems to be something better to do then the task at hand.
And tonight, enough was enough.
Finally in bed, with a story read, the light went off, lots of kisses and....
"Mummy, can I have a hot water bottle, pleeeeaaase??"
My answer was no, its too late.
As the door was closing, I could hear her little voice say, "mummy, if you do some work tonight, maybe after you finish your work, maybe if you have the time, mummy could you maybe make a hot water bottle, but only if you want to, maybe?"
Oh my gosh, what's a mummy to do, eh?